I am retiring. (Huh, I haven’t yet?)
It is not an easy thing to say. Eleven years ago I was zealously updating my blog and documenting every single aspect of my teenage life (B and L came over, then I met J at the grocery store). I wrote about my experiences in college (fleeing dorm curfew to watch Die Another Day) and from 2006, my career in television. I did video blogs in 2008 (I support Barack Obama! video made CNN) and focused on travel entries, in bits and pieces, ever since. My La Brea Inn entry is my most popular up to now and I keep getting comments asking if there’s an available room! Magbasa po, salamat. *wink
I believe I’ve seen it all. Oh, those good old days when I visited Starbuckscoffeeforfree (maintained by one of the first bloggers I met in person). I could never overcome my shyness even when I met other bloggers during a 2008 HappySlip meet and greet in Taguig. I didn’t attend much of the blogger conferences… because honestly, I’ve always felt like that shy kid in class. But I am happy to have met some of these bloggers. Recently, that includes Nina from Just Wandering.
I should have “retired” two years ago. Or maybe three. But at the back of my mind, I was going to finish that backlog of posts. But life happened. Singapore happened. I could never get myself to finish what little I had written last year and the year before. Facebook and Twitter made that itch to share something far easier (which makes it lazy). I still don’t understand why it seems WordPress needs an update every week.
Real writing… well, flushed out. I forced myself to write a few articles for magazines. They were published, but it felt forced. I was fortunate to have two editors who encouraged me to write. But as I’ve grown older, writing no longer feels natural. The heart of blogging is writing great content. Writing great content is the CORE of blogging. Today, most people usually share good content. That’s why Facebook and Twitter are king. So cheers to the content producers. Especially the quirky ones!
With over five years in TV promo, my writing skills are like this:
- Next on Avatar: The Legend of Aang…
- Now, it’s the final showdown…
- Meet Lulu and Yeeta… twins… double the trouble…
- In a world where… [kidding, this is a CLICHE]
- Don’t miss the must-see episode of…
- Tuesdays 8:30 PM and Saturdays 12:30 PM
Take note that you must write to cater towards the target TV audience. Target demographic. To accomplish target ratings. Blah blah blah… you get what I’m saying?
I started blogging in April 2002, fresh from high school. Today, I seal the journey with a kiss. I’m smiling as I reminisce those New Years’ eves when I was excited to “PUBLISH” the annual “new look for the blog”. I’ve done it all. Baduy layout. Super baduy layout. White background, simplified. Three columns. Chatbox. AdSense that I never could get to work. AdSense that eventually worked but contradicted the reason why I started blogging… which was to express myself, not sell.
I never had the audience enjoyed by popular bloggers. It didn’t matter to me because this 11 year-old blog is more of a diary. But I enjoyed knowing and meeting bloggers. I enjoyed reading Poyt’s Tanggera, Kring’s FunnySexy, Micaela’s “Micamyx” travel blog. I still follow some travel bloggers from Visayas. It felt nice to meet some of them in person. Like, bukod kay Nina, Mr. Ironwulf Ferdz. Oh, and Mr. Juarez from Lakwatsero, at an event in Cubao X. Ms. Upper Viceo, we are all just characters in your universe!
I enjoyed reading entries from fellow LGBT bloggers or bloggers who post LGBT-friendly entries. There’s McVie, Mr. Cadiz, MGG, and several others. Though I’ve thought about doing an LGBT lifestyle blog, I never thought I could stand up to it compared with the established ones. Either, established and respected… or just sleazy. Or a mix. But a mediocre gay blog, ewww di ba.
Oh, and my brother! Who has (sadly, like me) blogged less frequently about his life but he’s still at it. He has done a far better job than me in documenting how life is for a young Filipino in this era. By that I mean his feats into video gaming and delicious hamburgers. At times, I envy his life! He blogs without advertisements. He blogs to express himself. Something which got me to start blogging many years ago.
But the drive to blog and sadly, at this stage, the time to visit these favorite blogs of mine… has faded. I feel like I have to be true to myself and say goodbye to Draft-Preview-Edit-Preview-Edit-Draft-Publish. This is my farewell.
I am retiring from blogging in the hope of finding my way back to writing. (Weird, right?)
Thank you, dear reader.
Thank you, blogging community.
Thank you, loved ones for supporting me all this time.
I’ll keep this blog up and running for at least another year as I archive posts and entries.